i think it's about time...
most of these are uni & myself. this girl is BEYOND cool.
i met the most amazing people this summer.
( let me introduce youuu )
| Your Cute Monster Says Your Inner Demon is Sensitivity |
 You appreciate what you have in life. You are very content. You are very sensitive, and your sensitivity can be a double edged sword. People think you're cute because you're generous. You are easy to love - it's part of your charm. |
- Mood:
content
a toss-up between getting my tattoo & doing
LSD on the riverbed. in the same time frame.
within 10 hours of eachother. XD
i haven't gotten written up, fired, or complained
about yet. hahaa. seriously though, this job is a
serious love hate thing. my two best friends up there
are gerie & frodo. they're both considering staying
thru the winter...well gerie is for sure, frodo might
be a no-go. HAA i rhymed. today, i made FOURTEEN beds
in FORTY FIVE MINUTES. it was fucking insanity. not
to mention it's been in the eighties here. wtf, alaska?
shaner & i are still trying to figure out what it is
exactly that we're doing this winter. there are a couple
prospects...we have the camper but it needs to be winterized
like a son of a bitch. same with the truck, needs a heater
cord & studded snow tires...but i'm still trying not to think
about the winter right now. hah. i can't believe we're already
seven days into june. it's really a trip.
sitting here with my corona, thinking to myself, while
listening to my dad's music blared thru the house, i feel
complete. i just ordered $40 worth of hairdyeeee...for the
end of season, of course. =]
also, saturday at 2pm shane and i both have tattoo appointments!!
i'm getting a fuckin' pink circus cookie! FINALLY.
he's getting a memorial for his cousin, sarah that passed away
this last october. i'm pretty excited. also, pretty drunk.
hah. so, i guess i'm off to spend more moneeeeeys.
I LOVE HAVING A PAYPAL ACCOUNT!!
racing raindrops, exhilarated,
waiting for time to slow down
or speed up at the same time.
it's like childhood renewed and
being violated all the same.
it's the reason you say yes but
you really mean no.
it's the constancy of life, always
on the go. delusional thoughts
from underneith the bed, the
monster of eternity slamming
into my head. the painful realization
of back in the days when we were young,
coming back to haunt us for what
we've become.
damaging lies, there are no easy goodbyes.
unless they've been anticipated,
and played out, wishing what we said
was never delated, why connect this to that?
it's not even related.
how come every time you go there, i act all jaded?
i don't want you, i don't love you, i am simply
intrigued by you. and is that such a crime?
what's so bad about manipulation?
there's no wasted time.
and it has already taught me a ton of
responsibility.
who else thinks britney's eyebrows
are in need of a stylist? is it just me?
i had my first anxiety attack at work for
the first time in six years. long stressful
day, by myself. no one saw me break
though. so that's good. i get this week
end off and i couldn't be more psyched.
i am very tired and i had a dream last
night that i rolled with katie and a few
other people but the shit didn't work so
we just sat around and talked and talked
for hours and just ...idk i miss how life
was back in the days when we were young.
it's such a bittersweet feeling.
- Mood:
blah
this week than last week. i've made many
friends. it's intense to have a 9-5 six days
a week. especially for me. i found a bathtub
full of pubes today and also, a pair of panties
and two dollars on a bed...that was a nice
little treat. the cool thing though, is that my lead
loves me...i haven't gotten in any trouble and i'm
workin my ass off. the truck is runnin' good.
moved back to the camper, and it's so clean and
nice and not stinky or moldy or anything. =]
this weekend, i get friday AND saturday off, i 'm
so psyched. gunna go to bluegrass and camp.
yaaay. i'm beat & gotta find my birth certificate if
i wanna get paid on next monday. =[ boo.
<3
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wow. seven days til my first day of work.
good thing it's easy to remember! the 8th
at 8am! =] i'm having a hair crisis kind of.
it's a strange colour but blonde enough
to deal with and will be passable for work.
i ate great indian food today. i got carsick
on the way home and threw it up though.
:[ what else? jon rolled laura's truck. if i
had sufficent batteries for my camera i
would take pictures. i got my first vehicle.
haven't gotten pictures yet, but...it's an old
dodge and i love it so much. there was
something stinky in there from johnny
and i poured a whole bottle of carpet fresh
on the seats then hotboxed it with fizzy pop
incense. i was so psyched to find that certain
incense, i have been looking for it for the last 3
years, first time i got it was at the state fair.
it's amazing. XD life is good. things are getting
better as time goes by. working on the camper
so that we can stay in it this summer.
- Mood:
enthralled
so i'm really pissed at myself. i was doing so good
at keeping a daily journal. it had been three solid
months of keeping it. my dumbass left it in wasilla
at jackie's. =[
i'm gunna go stay up at my aunt denise's because
she just got out of the hospital. one of her ribs was
really fucked up. the shitty part is that she can't have
any pain medication. she's allergic. so shaner and i
are gunna go stay with her so that we can chop wood
and do all the crap she shouldn't be doing while injured.
i made beef chow mein for dinner. yum.
greatness is defined, by me, as when a person
tries their hardest and never gives up even after
the fall on their ass a million times.
greatness is when a person loves another
person for who they are and appreciates
their presence and their company.
greatness is doing everything a person
can to make life a little better.
sara came out early last week.
she was at joshes and shaner
and i went over there and hung
out, then jackie came out and
picked the three of us up.
we got stuck in johnny's driveway.
we had so much fun in town!!
"crazy orgies all the time!"
what movie is that from?? hmmm...
anyway, we were starving so the
guys hijacked hotdogs from walmart.
hahaha. i love jackie so much. jeez.
i was really sick yesterday.
awful stomachache and every time
i got out of bed i was uncontrollably
dizzy and felt like i was gunna throw up.
thank god for jackie's mom.
she brought me a sprite.
=]
yay i got to see katie.
we hung out in wasilla.
uhmm, i'm so happy i
got to see her. let's see.
since then, i've babysat
a trillion times, made a
bit of money. it's snowing.
i am so fucking sick of
the snow. it's beautiful,
yes, i get it but life in a
snow globe is just so
disheartening. my effing
parents were up til 6am
having a screaming match.
so not much sleep for me.
our water's frozen.
so not much shower for me.
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
- Mood:fuck
we've pretty much just hung out together since he's been
back. =] he bought me these unbelievable pajama pants,
they're like a fluffy blanket for my legs! they're covered in
rainbow hearts too!! yay. he also brought me a bunch of
sarah's old clothes. so that's really badass. today i woke
up in a horrible mood though. i hate getting my period. it's
all eve's fault. stupid bitch shouldn't have eaten the damn apple!!
- Mood:pmsmonster
but today, i'm having a horrible day. i seem
to be really emotional. crying a LOT. and
i have this fantastic migraine, that will not
go away. i was fighting really bad with my
sister. she made me cry. blegh.
- Mood:headachey
- Music:reggae
sometimes i think god is just playin
with me half the time. it's so waarrrm!
i started to make dove a valentine's day card. uhmm,
hmmmm...i am trying to be patient. but it's not too bad.
ny brain can not connect my thoughts to my hands right
now. it's weirdly astounding.
i hung out with mongo outside for a little while today.
i fed him some candy corn. i love my dog. he's probably
the coolest dog on earth. =]
i want to make a cupcake made out of glitter
and paper. i am lacking the glue factor though.
damn.
but, in other news...i love gemma ward.
i think she is the most gorgeous thing on
this entire planet. in our universe. and all
others. i absolutely love her and want to
kiss her. so incredibly bad. yummtastic!
and the world was coming to an end. first
off, i was in a car with somebody that got
a dui and then there was a horrible tornado
right in front of us. before we knew it, we were
all back at jimbo's house. then a cat wearing
a fedora with a feather drove up in jimbo's
truck..and out piled 3 people i went to middle
school with. they said there were no people
left alive in nebraska. it was really weird and
horrible. all of a sudden, there were giant
word magnets on random things outside
and a kangaroo knocks down our door...
then beats me up. so shane beats the
kangaroo up, [who also stole my hat]
umm, the grim reaper kept driving by
the hour staring.
on the plus side, my mom's
making corned beef & cabbage.
YUM
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